Wednesday, January 25, 2012

We are more human than we know



We are badly bent people with no remedy for our twisted condition. One thing, however, binds us—liars, whores, nuns, teachers, lawyers, kings, peasants, starved, gluttons, accountants, businesspeople, artist—we all look at the squalid world around us, put our hands to our faces and whisper “oh my God.”

None deny that we’ve inherited a world sagging under the weight of our selfishness.
At some moment in our lives we feel the terror of a parent whose infant simply will not wake, and in that moment our helplessness to change anything burns to the quick. 

So out from the lips of rapists, fathers, mothers, homosexuals, presidents, immigrants, addicts, priests, students, everyone, comes the humanizing cry “oh my God.”

“Oh my God,” we say:
When a bride returns from the honeymoon with a beaten face.
When we sit in a sun-baked car.
When children matted with debris from their once-home stumble into our living rooms, crying into our television.
When small towns, choked full of churches, pass laws making it illegal to be homeless.
When the world becomes enamored with reality television weddings and becomes bored with warring nations.
When soldiers, unable to handle war-memories created from serving their country, take their lives.
When a fed-up flight attendant flips off the passengers, opens a beer and activates emergency landing.
When gas costs more than food.
When starving people kill each other for garbage.
When a New Yorker kills a three foot rat. 
When millions are wasted on making commercial goods while homes smashed by tornadoes still sit in jagged heaps for years.
When a woman feels a lump.
When the market crash strips a family of everything.
When women and children are exploited, raped, sold, bought.
When we receive the toothless smile of a freshly bathed baby.
When we get our credit card bill.
When we smash our thumbs.

Gender, race, social status, sexual-orientation and culture rise to the same level, stripped of their chasmizing differences when we make the same plea.

“Oh my God.”

Monday, January 9, 2012

Abbigail Caldwell Was Primed For Death Before Her First Tooth Fell And


Tea leaves remind me of Abbi.
Little lungs bobbing in our river, the Tankey.
Air bubbles, protective parents, push
Her back to an arch, head still down to stare at lush
Golden brown algae, gray gator gar, mercury coated minnow – all swayed
By whorling eddies, moved along this lazy river back’s way.

She dragged both feet through two miles of mud.
Past the Mills, shoe laces move along and scud
Down the bank, till deep, one crag snatched her.
First one foot. Then the other.
Hung there crucified, hair out like fingers,
Catching dead leaves, scum and silt between
Suspended, decaying hair.

And she stayed there.

Till the rescue snorkeler found her milk-eyed stare,
Arms wide, dress moving in wet breeze, little pinky nibbled bare.
Pulled her tiny water-logged corpse up, up-and then
Let mother’s bewildered mourning finally begin.
“Found her half-eaten, finally, poor soul-“
Neighbors words give less comfort than their soggy casseroles.